I am in misery!!!! The CCAA is only up to July 22, 2005 people! 2005!!!!!!!!! I am logged in on 4/25/06. They referred families logged in over a year ago last month!!! AAAAHHHHHH!!!!
Want to know what makes it worse? I lost it the other day and contacted an agency that works with Russia. They referred me a little girl, 2 yrs old. Yep…... I got pictures & everything.
Here comes the ugly part of adoption. I have already invested over $10,000 in fees for the agencies (homestudy etc) and China registration fees etc etc. I WONT be getting this back. ALSO I will have to start all over for Russia. Think another 30k on top of this.
I most likely will not get a referral from China until late 2007 or early 2008 if things continue on the same course. Can you imagine trying to plan your life with the unknown of WHEN your child will come into your life? You KNOW you’re getting one but when? Then you need to plan international travel with vacation time/family leave at work, kids and school, blah blah blah…...
DH is frustrated and ready to go for it w/ Russia. I was too until my SW said they will cut me no breaks ($$$$ & time). That “how much faster will the Russia time line really be? Am I ready to deal with the paperchase again?” THEY are the ones who took months to write the darn thing in the first place! I signed up with them in June of 05. Yes- the same people who just got their children. Do I really want to give them more thousands of dollars?
Ok then…. when my oldest son sees the pictures of the little girl he says, “Mom that’s my sister! She is exactly how she looks in my dreams!” It hurts and I am disgusted with myself for balking now b/c of dirty ugly MONEY. This dear, sweet little girl who is living in an orphanage since she was 1 month old- why is she still there you say? Well, lets just say most people go to Russia for a caucasian baby and she is not.
I could just vomit I am so sick about this.
Why won't they let me do BOTH?!?
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